Battling illness and depression...:[

Sorry for the lack of posts...I am currently battling Illness and Depression, and im finding life really hard.
I don't really want to go into reasons, but lets just say my past is upsetting me and summing it up in a few words my life has been: Illness, Abuse, Neglect, Sexual Harrassment, Bullying, Depression.
I have tried to kill myself multiple times. It just all seems too much.
I have not been well in 2 years. Im not the happy bubbly girl ya'll think i am. Im a sad, pained, depressed girl, who thinks life is never good.
Im just about to talk to my Therapist, and then i need a bath and need to pray. Then im going to bed.
Please, God. Please...Make me happy soon....
~Hail Mary, Full of Grace, The lord is with thee, blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb jesus. Holy Mary, mother of God, Pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen~

My Birthday (1st August)

Hello my peoples!
You are now reading a post by a 13 year old. :D
When i woke up on my birthday, I opened my presents and cards
I always open my cards first, biggest card to smallest card. From my birthday cards i got £70 from family members!! (Nan, Uncles, Aunties)
Now for presents! I opened mums first then Dads
From my Mum i got:
Glee Season 1 COMPLETE dvd set (all the episodes and special features)
Glee Season 2 Volume One
Chloe the Chihuahua LOL

From Dad and his GF:
3 books by Meg Cabot
Sims 2 Freetime expansions pack
 and then unfortunately...Glee season 1 complete dvd set...Same as mums

 Now i had already taken of the plastic wrapper off the one Mum bought me, so i had to take Dads one back and i got £30 cash for that so now i have £100!

Mum made me a HUGE roast dinner...CHICKEN :)

Look at that chicken!! :)

Followed by a homemade gluten free birthday cake (i helped to make it)

 I want to thank my Mum for a perfect birthday, and for putting up with me for all these years :P
I want to thank my Facebook friends for all the birthday messages and I want to thank Joe Cook. For being the best online Buddy ever! :D

My Last Night as a kid...

Tonight, is my last night as a kid. Tomorrow, i am officially a teenager, and a young adult.
I may get out all my old toys and play with them. Just to remind me of my childhood, while it lasts.
At 13 years old, i am old enough to get a paying job.
Sometime this week, im going to be look for a job in a few Cafe's (Cleaning tables and serving) or maybe in the Green Grocers.
Well..Thats all i have to say. I shall no longer be a child. I shall be a woman. Wonder Woman to be exact.

Phew! That was HARD work.

i have JUST finished tidying my room! Its 4pm. I started at 11 am....:O
Anyways, in the process of redecorating, so i need to get some new paint (i think im just gunna stick with white, or maybe white with just a tiny hint of lilac in) and mirrors, and canvas paintings and shelves and loads of stuffs :D
I havent redecorated my room in 6 YEARS! Meaning that my room was waaay to kiddish for me, but with the stuff im getting i think i will like them even when im an adult!
When its allllll done, i'll post some pictures here, and MAYBE even a video room tour on Facebook! :D
MY BIRTHDAY IN 2 DAYYYYYS!

Birthday Soon!

It's my birthday on Monday 1st August.
I am turning 13. I'm not having a party because im not the most "Partayy Girllayy". Im going to spend Sunday with my Dad,( if I'm well enough), My Dads GF and her son (I say he's my brother as we're close).
On my birthday, Im spending the day with my Mum. Shes taking Sunday, Monday, Tuesday AND Wednesday off work for me! :]
Chloe was part of my birthday present, but mums going to get me a few little presents too!
Dad doesn't know what to get me, so i guess im just getting Money.
Some people that I met online, were wondering what to get me for my birthday as I obviously can't give my address.
Now, the answer to this is: You dont have to get me ANYTHING. But if you insist on something, You can get amazon.co.uk money vouchers that you send to the persons Email Address.
Hope everyone has a GREAT Day :]

Cravings!! :S

I have a huuuge craving for hummus and carrot sticks! :D
Im not sure if its okay for nausea, but hey i have a craving and i cant help it haha!
I have a craving for banana chips too, but i dont think they would go with hummus.
*sigh*

Doctor results!

Well, went to the doctors.
Im going to be doing a urine test (ahh lovely :P ) and hopefully it will state whats wrong.
I know i am anemic, and coeliac, but the urine test will also state if i have a dairy allergy or diabetes.
Just got the guinea pigs salad ready and took a quick snap of it before giving it to them.

Poppy and Daisy get a salad this size daily. Today they are eating:
2 Romaine Lettuce leaves
1/8 Green Bell Pepper
1/8 Red Bell Pepper
1 Small Carrot
2 Cherry tomatoes
2 Small Broccoli floretts.

Lucky things!! :]

Sunny!

Its finally sunny and warm, here in wales! :]
I just popped to the library to get some gluten free cook books, and later im going to the Doctors :/
Ive been ill for 3 weeks now, so i need to figure out whats wrong! Fingers crossed....